I will survive my PhD

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Inside front cover of my journal

Over the last five weeks or so I have been privileged, as have been many others from all over the world to be part of Inger Mewburn – The Thesis Whisperer’s MOOC course “How to survive your PhD” via EdX and ANU.

To date we have covered, amongst others, modules to do with Confidence, Frustration and Loneliness. Each module has related readings and videos to read and watch as well as a weekly periscope live chat, twitter feed and a myriad of Facebook pages that have been set up to assist in sharing resources, feelings, and whatever else we may need or seek. Sometimes we even get homework! Last week’s was to go out and meet up with other PhDs over coffee!

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Homework complete!

 

For me as an older PhD student, at 51, the MOOC course was something that I jumped at – not to mention – I love the Thesis Whisperer.

My favourite module to date has to be the Loneliness topic only because all of a sudden the social network seemed to have exploded as the course becomes ever more popular. I have had the opportunity to connect with great fellow PhD students including the ever growing Facebook page PhD Owls -Older, Wise Learners.

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My cup tipped for all PhD Owls

While there has been discussion in regards to whether loneliness is good or bad and if it needs to be cured at all. I feel there are instances where some ‘alone’ time is essential to all but especially to me as a woman, wife, mother, daughter, sister, neice, friend, cousin, educator, learner, teacher, PhD student and a human being. Alone time allows for me to read out loud, to walk around the house with a book or my laptop, gesticulating and making weird expressions – now they know – without having to answer to anyone. I like breaking up my learning with cooking, cleaning, folding, washing, etc. – they call it procrasti-something (replace as required)! Right now I’m sitting at my kitchen bench having moved from the study, to the lounge, into the dining room and finally to here, all after having done three loads of washing, made our bed, stripped the one in the guest room, baked a chocolate cake, and put the dinner on. My friend cancelled lunch on me today and secretly I am quite happy as it’s given me more ‘me’ time. I miss catching up with my mate but just today it seemed better for me to stay in and just get on with things, including this post that I started early this morning -now almost 5:30 in the afternoon.

I haven’t really done too much PhD reading today but I’ll tell you what, I’ve thinking about what I read yesterday. This week is all about Freire and critical pedagogy. You may have come across my post on the PhD Owls Facebook page which got a whole lot more attention than I anticipated and hooked me up with a few others who were interested and/or contemplating Freire themselves. We even exchanged some resources. See, I’m not lonely -well at least not this week so much. I just figure my way of beating the loneliness factor is getting on MOOC and bam! I write this blog with the idea that someone may read and comment and get me thinking differently. That’s how I stay connected -oh – and did I mention twitter? I love twitter. ‘Hello my name is Jo and I’m a twitter addict.’

I felt like I was there with the MOOC gang last night during the live periscope chat on Loneliness, a little awkward that the meet up didn’t quite work out but it was a lot of fun from the ‘outside in’ anyhow. My favourite part is logging in early and listening in as Inger and the gang chuckle at posts and stick their head in view to tell me only 4 minutes till we start, but secretly we’ve started – it’s like my other favourite ‘thing’ to do – taking photos of people I love and care for while they are unaware. It tends to give them this whole new perspective and mostly it reveals how comfortable they are within themselves and when interacting with others.

There’s a party going on around them but these two have got their own little ‘festa’ going on…

Anyhow, I just wanted to give a shout out to all PhDs on MOOC and to The Thesis Whisperer and her gang of helpers just to let them know how much I am enjoying the course and the interactions on social media. I love telling non PhDs about it and watching them roll their eyes or laugh out loud or look at me like I’ve got two heads – Where do you find the time? I make it cause it’s worth it. I will survive my PhD. I am not an imposter. I am smart enough to get into a PhD and therefore I will come out with a PhD. I won’t be scared and I’ll try not to doubt myself. I will survive…wait…is that a song?

Thanks for reading 🙂

Bricolage: random chaos, a live link and a 3Dimensional jigsaw puzzle

“Creative research methods can help to answer complex contemporary questions, which are hard to answer using traditional methods alone. Creative methods can also be more ethical, helping researchers to address social injustice.”  (Helen Kara)

Bricolage

my notebook, one of many

A 3D Jigsaw

I spent the last few days reading up on bricolage. I have investigated this area before but it just seems to have more purpose now. It had me hooked pretty much for hours. Some months ago my main supervisor sent me off to investigate and see if I could make a case for using it in my research. Today I think I’ve found it.

Before I continue I must relay that I am NOT an expert and I understand that to become a true bricoleur is a lifetime endeavour. I do not presume to know it all but am willing to begin the journey.

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my 3D bricolage

For me, bricolage is like a 3-D jigsaw puzzle, where some pieces fit snuggly while others leave a space and others still seem not to be from the same puzzle at all.  This special puzzle can be assembled in multiple ways; some pieces may be placed on top of one another, adding another perspective to the image. It remains an active task just like we leave the puzzle on a coffee table or a board that can be easily taken from room to room as we slowly put the puzzle together over time. Similarly, bricolage takes on not one but many different shapes (Denzin & Lincoln, 2000). It is a creative combination of theoretical narratives made up of diverse media, genres, forms and styles (Lindlof & Taylor, 2002). Bricolage allows for multiple layers of interpretation, is not monological knowledge but more an eclectic process that highlights the relationship between the researcher’s way of seeing and the social location of personal history (Denzin & Lincoln, 2000).

My eclectic bricolage

Reminds me a little of my favourite coffee shop, decked out with different tables and chairs,  a diversity of light fittings hanging down over the room, lamp here and there to add a lovely warm glow, interestingly framed little snippets on the stressed pale blue/green wall reminiscent of the life and times from the owner family, a mix of second hand crockery and mismatched cups and saucers. The water bottles once filled with other liquid, or decanters that have since been separated from their fancy stoppers.

Bricolage – a research design that takes on not one but many shapes. This is what I plan …

Random chaos

For most of my teaching career I have had others desribe my classrooms as ‘ordered chaos’. They are loud, moving, engaging, fun and happy environments. I’m not lying. Today I decided that ‘random chaos’ is pretty cool too. I’ve decided that I want to tell a different story.

I had three questions to ponder:

1. HOW will bricolage work for me?

2. WHAT will my research look like if I use bricolage?

3. WHY it can bring its research perspectives to my work?

Bricolage could be a way of researching human acivities, relationships and cultures (Berry, 2006) and has lots of potential for post modern research that requires new methods, new questions, new tools, new processes and new ways of reporting. It allows one to move away from the linear, step-by-step methods usually employed in research. In a way it really reflects how I think and feel about research and my methods, or rather how I have been thinking but never really shared it, as self-doubt trickles in constantly and I often wonder if I’m on the right track at all.

I’m very passionate about my research -about what I want to do and for a little while I nearly gave it up altogether but then like I said, I’m passionate about it and I never give up -not without a fight anyhow. Kincheloe (2004), recognised the power of bricolage and set off to teach a summer course in 2002 on the bricolage and research. How I would’ve loved to have been a student in that course! Introduced as a new form of rigour in research, it was “offered as a practical way to construct a critical science of complexity” (p. X).

I really relate to the idea that bricolage gives the researcher an opportunity to ‘become’ a part of the phenomena they are studying. As a 30 year veteran in teaching and a lifetime of learning it would be impossible to sit on the peripheries of anything educational, especially that to do with teaching and learning students and more particularly, the professional learning of staff. I am, in Kincheloe’s (2004), words, “embedded in the world” (p. xi). I hold strong beliefs about education, about learning and about teaching and I am always striving for what it could be rather than what is should be (Berry 2004). Needless to say I get into a lot of trouble for it.

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Bricolage will work for my research as I am constantly re-working and adding or taking away ideas dependent on the situation. I spend copious amounts of time listening and thinking and learning my students before applying teaching strategies to suit, and am always ready and willing to take risks. Nothing is really how it seems and sometimes we never really know but are willing to try to review and reflect to add richness and depth to what we do. Bricolage is how I think.

So why use bricolage in my own research? It will allow me to embed myself within the task. I can reflect on my own experience while allowed the privilege to listen and make sense of others’ experience. It will allow me to employ several theories and use a variety of methods to collect and analyse the data. I won’t have to be stringent in keeping to a set path but instead can swerve and turn and loop around in order to make sense of my participants’ experiences.

It will bring to my research a more complex and rigorous platform that will allow a defence of what I know and how I know it but also allow my participants through a participatory action research methodology to do the same. I don’t want to be limited in what I can and can’t do.I want to disturb the staus quo and I want my participants to employ enough courage to do the same. We shall begin from what we know and where we are and together seek new knowledge and insights to drive our passion to amass not only new knowledge but one that transforms and sustains change. This is action research.

A live link

Bricolage allows the bricoleur to justify, to defend what I know and how I know it. It allows me to break the phenomenon into the now, the before and the after and it will allow me to loop around and position myself within the action research. I don’t want to stand back and watch; I want to be in it. I want to be like a live link such as that we put into a blog or a tweet, and that when clicked takes us somewhere else. These links take us away from the linear to seek multiple perspectives. In action research different methods only give light to a particular aspect and none divulge the whole picture, therefore we must look at different perspectives as each illuminates the other. This is bricolage. For me it’s like a teaching moment, let it go and you lose the attention of your students. Using bricolage will allow me to sieze that moment and to collect from different parts, to live with anticipation, to be creative and to be unique – there is no blueprint for that.

Problemitise everything I was told.

Berry (2015), explains problematising to be important to social action research and therefore important to bricolage. To problematise is not to fix but to transform into many different ways and on many different levels, situations and times that are encountered in our everyday lives. Problemitising is done to re-think and re-see not necessarily solve and this adds to the rigour of bricolage as it allows the researcher or bricoleur to decide when and which particular tools to use.

So here we go…I’m going to write myself in…stay tuned.

Thanks for reading 🙂

What’s special about special ed?

Learning Support Officers (LSOs) come to mind – but they can’t and shouldn’t be doing it on their own.

There is so much confusion as to the role and responsibilities of teachers and LSOs. Obviously this is an area very close to my heart and at the very core of my PhD research.

The role of Learning Support Officer

The main role of a Learning Support Officer (LSO) is to assist students on an individual or group basis in specific learning needs under the direction of a teacher who is ultimately responsible for the design, implementation and evaluation of education programs and related services (CECV 2014). It is not the role of the LSO to withdraw students who misbehave or who don’t seem to understand the learning required. The teacher is responsible for all students in the class and for optimal learning environments to be created and sustained; they must have all members present and willing to participate in the environment. The teacher’s role is to make that happen by learning about, and teaching the students for whom they are responsible and in the case where there are students who present with disability an extra effort is required to work collaboratively with the LSO in order to make that classroom a cohesive and functional optimal learning environment for all. After all, it is not about the content, it’s about the students, it’s about how they learn and it’s about how the teacher can make that happen. Begin where they are, challenge them, support them and show them where they could be. Believe.

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Teachers play a key role in facilitating the effectiveness of the Learning Support Officer (LSO) and their capacity to enhance student learning. To enable this, flexibility, communication, collaboration and clear direction is required from the teacher.

Unfortunately there are few training programs or research data to identify skills and knowledge required to successfully establish and maintain a healthy relationship between teacher and LSO that leads to optimal learning opportunities for students with disabilities.

Optimal learning environments support students’ natural desire to learn where learning becomes both playful and challenging. Optimal learning environments need to be developmentally appropriate and encourage positive social behaviours as well as reflecting intelligence (Lackney 1999, Linton et al, 2014). Standards should be raised to a level where they can be achieved with some effort and as students succeed the level is raised a little more and the procedure continues until the final goal is reached (Sileo & van Garderen 2010). Once this happens then new goals are set. A student’s efficacy, i.e. personal belief in their ability to succeed, has been identified as an effective predictor of learning and therefore we must set learning goals that allow them to be successful but not without effort (Shernoff et al 2014).

Cooperation, communication and collaboration between teachers and support staff can foster optimal learning environments for all students but especially for students with disabilities. Student engagement is highest when concentration, interest and enjoyment are stimulated simultaneously. The most effective way to collide these in the classroom is by taking the time to get to know each one of your students. It is imperative that one knows what their students like, what their strengths are, and most importantly, to know their abilities and this can only be done by first establishing a relationship. Once they are hooked, the content learning will come (Burgess 2012, Solarz 2015).

There is evidence that a lack of time and uncertainty as to individual roles and responsibilities, (Bourke 2008, Rutherford 2011, Fisher & Pleasants 2012, Butt 2014), that seems to be preventing the formation of successful working partnerships between teachers and support staff for the ultimate goal of improving student learning outcomes. However, it is imperative that we make time to talk learning, rather than other administrative matters, that can be covered in an email or document sent to all.

The Effective Practices Framework for Learning Support Officers (CECV , 2014) lists seven desirable competencies for teachers supervising the work of LSOs (p. 17).

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I encourage you to take each of the seven desirable competencies and work through them one by one in establishing collaborative and communicative work relations (AISTL 2015) in order to create optimal learning environments for all students and most especially for those with disabilities.

 

Thanks for reading 🙂

References

Australia. Australian Institute for Teaching and School Leadership. (2015). The essential guide to professional learning: Collaboration. Melbourne: AISTL.

Bourke, P. (2008). The experiences of teacher aides who support students with disabilities and learning difficulties: A phenomenological study. Queensland University of Technology.

Burgess, D. (2012). Teach like a pirate. Increase student engagement, boost your creativity, and transform your life as an educator. San Diego, C.A.: Dave Burgess Consulting Inc.

Butt, R. (2014). The changing role of teacher assistants – where being a ‘mum’ is not enough. (Doctor of Philosophy), University of Canberra, Canberra.

Fisher, M., & Pleasants, S.L. (2012). Roles, responsibilities, and concerns of paraeducators: Findings from statewide survey. Remedial and Special Education, 33(5), 287-297.

Lackney, J.A. (1999). Why optimal learning environments matter. Paper presented at the Alaska Chapter of the Council of Educational Facility, Anchorage, AK.

Linton, D.L., Farmer, J.K., & Peterson, E. (2014). Is peer interaction necessary for optimal active learning? CBE – Life Sciences Education, 13, 243-252. doi: 10.1187/cbe.13-10-0201

Rutherford, G. (2011). “Doing right by”: Teacher aides, students with disabilities, and relational social justice. Harvard Educational Review, 81(1), 95-119.

Shernoff, D.J., & Csikszentmihalyi, M. (2014). Flow in schools revisited. Cultivating engaged learners and optimal learning environments. In M. Furlong, J., R. Gilman & S. E. Huebner (Eds.), Handbook of positive psychology in schools (pp. 211-226). Hoboken: Taylor and Francis.

Sileo, J.M., & van Garderen, D. (2010). Creating optimal opportunities to learn mathematics: Blending co-teaching structures with research-based practices. Teaching Exceptional Children, 42(3), 14-21.

Solarz, P. (2015). Learn like a pirate. Empower your students to collaborate, lead and succeed. San Diego C.A.: Dave Burgess Consulting Inc.

Victoria. Catholic Education Commission of Victoria. (2014). Effective practices framework for learning support officers. Melbourne: CECV.

A process of becoming…

Last Friday I attended the MERC conference at Monash University. This was a day to celebrate research to share ‘insights thoughts and practices’. The week leading up to the day I spent tossing up whether to attend at all – could I afford the time? Did I want to spend the day listening to how successful others have been in their journey? Did I want to hear again that a PhD is a rewarding and wonderful learning experience? But then the day came and I felt excited to go, so I went.

I’m glad I did.

The MERC team did a great job of organising the conference. I learned a lot. I met some great people and was able to chat to others I’d seen and heard speak in other forums.  I was even inspired.

The day began with the keynote speaker, Associate Professor Lucas Walsh; I used his message as my title for this blog. He spoke about how the process of becoming changes us and that we should enjoy it. Walsh described the journey using a theme park as metaphor.

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The main aim of going to a theme park is to have fun. One has a plan for what to do while there; go on this ride, eat this food, play this game, and see that show. We encounter signposts that help lead us in different directions. We try new things and once the day is over we meet up with friends and family to share our adventures and plan the next. Have a plan; remain focused but open to new ideas, said Walsh.

The process of becoming…

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This message remained with me all day as I moved from room to room to listen to the presentations by fellow PhD students. Each presenter had 30 mins or so to discuss their research and take questions. I heard from researchers of self-management interventions, spirituality, use of guided questions, teaching practicums, young men’s access to universities, task based language teaching (TBLT), mindfulness intervention, and the last, and most animated of the day for me, on arts based research.

In these sessions the process of becoming was very evident, not just for the presenters but for me personally.

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The afternoon panel session featured stories from the field by five academics. I listened with interest as they spoke about their journeys and experiences in becoming… I heard that it’s okay to have doubts. I certainly have many in relation to my PhD journey to date. This was one of the reasons I attended the conference – to see if I was on the right track. I wanted to be able to analyse if what I am doing has purpose. Is what I’m doing important enough to spend such time and effort? I was happy to share my ideas about the research and received some positive feedback. But still there are doubts. Am I good enough and determined enough to pull it off? I’m not one to give up, as many who know me will attest, but I find myself grappling with these thoughts every day.

There was lots of talk about life balance at the conference and at this moment I’m not sure mine is balanced.

Am I spending enough time on my PhD?

Am I giving my consultancy work enough attention?

Am I putting enough into my current leadership position in school?

Am I giving enough to my family and friends?

Do I have enough time for me?

Am I trying to do too much? (Don’t answer that – I know what you’re going to say!)

ENOUGH!?

Can this be measured?

My favourite quote from the conference came from Dr Marc Pruyn who said,

“Do what you want to do, on purpose.”

I think I’ll do exactly that. It is the purpose of becoming…

recite-1m74d0Thanks for reading 🙂

 

What makes me really angry…

It’s been a while since I sat to write a blog and as always it’s been brewing for quite a few weeks now. As I learn to learn all that goes with my new role, I have begun to get to know our students with disabilities a little better each day. I have had opportunities to speak with them directly, to learn with them, teach them, to meet their parents and spend time with other adults who work tirelessly to support and develop them as learners. I’ve seen and heard quite a number of things that reflect past experiences both positive and negative and it seems that there are some things that still surprise me.

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Some days I’ve left with a heavy heart while other days see me leave happy and confident that things might change or that I’ve made a little bit of difference to something or to someone’s learning experience. Those days where it seems that there is nothing more I can do only gets my brain churning, sometimes through sleepless, anxious nights in search of a solution or at least the next tiny step we could take towards the ultimate goal.

Amongst the school action there is also my consultancy work. I’m still running workshops and visiting schools to facilitate PD. Lately I’ve been spending time learning with primary school educators. In preparation for these workshops I have been trying to think of more innovative ideas for promoting positive classrooms and igniting passion in both students and teachers.

The Pirate, Dave Burgess, and his book Teach Like a Pirate is still prominent in my planning and prep of workshops. Paul Solarz’s book Learn Like a Pirate also makes headlines as schools strive to get their students to become more independent. These promoted me to add to my teacher toolkit with a recent trip to Bunnings – yes Bunnings! Suffice to say that for a few dollars each I now own and promote plumbing equipment that can be used as reading props and language enhancers as well as instruments to assist with addition and subtraction. I’m saying no more…

So… what makes me angry? Oh yes.

1. Teachers who don’t know their students AND don’t take the time to learn them

2. Lack of empathy

3. Unfair consequences

BUT there are many things that make me happy…

1. The support of colleagues and friends

2. My family who keep me sane while allowing me to be who I am

3. My students who surprise me, challenge me, annoy me, and amaze me all in the one lesson!

4. My time, though rare, when I get to write this blog

5. Tweet chats

6. My supervisors who as soon as they find out I’ve hit a wall call a meeting and make arrangements to call and talk even though they are on leave

7. I could go on…


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Thanks for reading 🙂